Love your Black
When they terrorize your
Existence and pray upon
Love your Black
As their chants ricochet
From their throats and
Aim for your insecurities
Love your Black
It’s easier to yell against the
But your rock your Black
Let me discover you once more& grip your darkness.
Let me rub it
between my fingers
till I tease
the light out of you.
Remind me again of why I returned
just to end up once more
on your lap
remorseful and regretful.
You are a spirit in a human body, not a human body with a spirit. In this lifetime you come in as an underdeveloped spirit with a lesson to learn. Whether it’s determination, how to be more selfless, how to be the GOAT, you will endure lifetimes of experiences that will amount to you successfully become the enlightened spirit you are meant to be. & Of course, what’s for you will ALWAYS be for you. No matter what or who gets in the way, if it’s yours nothing can get in your way.
Be yourself. Regardless of how goofy, curious, weird, stank ass attitude you are, someone will find you and love the shit out of you for exactly who you are. They will be ok with you and look at you like the sun shines out of your ass.
Be patient. I say this again because I have a tendency to take the buns out of the oven before they are done. That just leaves a nasty, raw, gooey mess that no one wants to clean up. This right here means that yes you can just go with the flow of things sometimes, but this choice also comes with the responsibility of knowing when you have to put your foot down and raise your finger up. And sometimes you won’t know when to do either. When you run into these moments…just pray because God never fails. When you are ready for something, when you are ready to be taken out of the oven, God will know and God will give you what you need. Remember those times you asked God for something and would throw a tantrum when he wouldn’t give you what you what you wanted? But then do you also remember how grateful you felt when you didn’t get it?
God is protecting you from the fuck boys and shitty situations. Listen, believe me when I say that no good deed goes unseen and no bad deed goes unpunished. You ain’t perfect my love and for all the wrong you’ve done and caused someone may do the same to you. It’s just the way life works.
You are not always responsible. Everyone comes with their baggage…everyone carries their own stories, their experiences, their share of embarrassing growing pains. And if somehow, somewhen you encounter human beings that haven’t fully dealt with the amount of crap they have in these black hidden boxes, you won’t ever notice at first, second, or third glance. You may not notice for a year or more if you are blindly in love. But when all that shit comes up to the surface to haunt them…you’ll get some of that projectile vomiting residue on your crown. It’s alright. It doesn’t feel alright, but it will be. Just clean off the mess he caused and continue to walk with your head held high. Will he come back? Maybe. Maybe he will return after having dealing with his shit and maybe he will return without having done so. Who knows? But if and when he does, be so consumed with yourself that you don’t let the encounter derail you or throw you off balance.
You have to keep your eyes open. Not everyone loves the way you do…not everyone has good intentions. My greatest mistake in this situation was that I looked for the good in him rather than letting him show me…A man has the ability and should have the power to show you who he is…the kind of person he is. You have to give him that chance…give yourself love first and always carry life out with patience.